May 19th- May 26th

5/19/24 Super good day. I love soccer with the zone. I wish I was better at it. I was a little slow on my feet today and just slightly exhausted. But we bought food and I got some new clothes so that is exciting 🤗 retail therapy. Had two lessons tonight that were super good! One was with the dad whose family are members. Taught him the restoration was good, the spirit was strong and the hermana also made a good snack for us too. Then we went to a yellow dot and she had a picture with a couple of sister Missionaries and had a copy of the Book of mormon!!!!!!! She also has family that is hermanas! Going to meet with her later this week! Got home at 9:45 and now I'm waiting for hermana Sasser to get out of the shower. She alaways takes forever in the bathroom 5/21/2024 Today was good/ very long. Plus I've been a little grouchy. We had zone council which was good. We talked about the doctrine of christ and how we can apply it to all areas of life. got the package from dad. It was loaded with good stuff. Today we had lots of travels and only 3 lessons. It was slow. I'm tired and I don't have much to say but yeah. It was good. Lily emailed me which made my day, and Anna Barton did too which was surprising.

 5/22/2024 Today was another day hahaha, but I hit 4 months. I think I'm a little sick so I have been pretty Exhausted. But we had 2 meals today which were good. And the first one I had half a plate of veggies which was yummy. I've never been so happy to see veggies in my life. Then we had exchanges and I went with Hermana G. It was a little rough not gonna lie. I just feel like she was fake nice. I don't know. But we went to YSA for 2 hours! And had one of the craziest lessons with Jeff. He was so dramatic hahah. But then we had a really cool lesson with Luis! His family is members and he is interested in learning more about Christ and involving Him more in his life. IT was fun teaching in English though! It was nice to know what was happening all the time haha. Then we had a cool phone lesson with a new guy named Jose. I taught most of the lessons in spanish! It was definitely rewarding. We also had a lesson with our girl Satcha who's on a date to be baptized. Her mom is a member but she is 10 so we are teaching her. She is my absolute favorite. I love going over to their house. The mom always gives us snacks and she is just so loving. I get to go see Jen tomorrow which I'm really excited about because I am so nervous about transfers everything, and having to be moved back to that apartment and reliving that experience again. I'm just not ready. Hopefully I can be sleep good tonight.

 5/23/2024 Today was so long 😭. We drove so much. And my appointment with jen apparently was on Wednesday so I missed it. I was really looking forward to it too. I wanted to talk to her about some things but I didn't get the chance. We did have two really cool lessons today with two really cool members present! One was with our girl Reyna! And the other was witha big family. Amd the member brought her son! He's like 10 and he reminds of maleck so it really touched my heart. We had interviews with the president today and let's just say it was hard for me. We talked about being steady, specially alma 38. And I told him how I am terrified for transfers and I just told him how I didn't want to relive the last transfer. And he asked me about my decision to stay again. And I'm starting to get frustrated because I feel like my answer to stay Isn't enough. And I feel like he keeps getting me about the whole companion thing and it's not making me any less scared for transfers next week. Because I finally feel like I have made progress and I'm finally getting in a routine of things and I don't want to go backwards when I have come this far. And I feel like I've been doubting myself and my testimony a lot with these experiences because it feels like I am not good enough, or not steady enough to continue to press forward. I think this is the most I've ever doubted myself and heavenly fathers plan for me before.

 Highlight of the day was that the flarpp dad sent brought a smile and a laugh to me and hermana marble

 5/24/2025 Hahaha well today was interesting. I had a zoom call with jen and balled my eyes out The whole time. She helped calm me which was good. She isn't working next week, but set up an appointment with me anyway. Today was slow because of all the planning. But we met a cool girl named Erica bit we are pretty sure she does some like undercover work…kinda interesting but she loves learning and seemed interested in the bom. Had dinner with the Carriera family. They feel like my family here. They take care of us so good. Everyone sat at the table to have our thought. It felt like a good family discussion. Read the proclamation to the world with them and talked about forgiveness. I told them how I have seen grudges pull families apart and how important it is to be strong with your family and be a team. I might have cried a little. Shout out to the flapp again. I think that was the one thing that got me amd hermana marble to laugh tonight.

 5/25/2024 Today was cool! We got to do some service from 10-4! It was a community event at Pintoresca Park! It was popping! We help set up and then got to do face painting for the little kids! It was honestly so fun because I love little kids. We had some cool contacts/lessons today too. Basically one guy spoke some serious spanglish on the phone with us. Like every five words he would switch hahaha. He also Basically Told us how is is in love with this one girl who lives in another country. He talked for so long we just plopped down right on the sidewalk and took out our snacks. Had a cool lesson with a recent convert elranor. She is 14! Literally has such a big desire To grow closer to God. It was fun to just sit and chat with her too! We were on bikes today, but for only half the day I guess…but it was nice and the sun finally came out for a little but after not being out for like 2 weeks now.

 5/26/2024 Today started out lame and kinda rough. A missionary came back to the visitt the area with her family and it just made Me feel like I am never gonna go home. Transfers are this week and I'm stressed to the max. It has been hard for me to feel the spirit just because I am just worried about it quite often. I just don't want to do a redo of last transfer either And I really hope I can stay in the area with Hermana Marble. Today we rode bikes and we had some funny experiences though. Got bashed by a catholic. Made two new cool friends!! They are adorable. Had a guy tell us he thinks the crows are following him. Gave a mom a pad to stop her kids nose from bleeding. Hermana marble was doing a cool trick on her bike but 10 seconds after I told her how cool it was she almost crashed. Dinner with the elders was so fun. After dinner elder lemus fixed my bike from squeaking so much. Currently sitting listening to the other hermanas scream about something hahah who knows hahaha