Letters from mom

February 2, 7:02 AM

 “Savior then savior now, deliverer then deliverer now” I heard that yesterday and I thought it was really beautiful so I wanted to share- have a great day! I love you ‘Em Hermana Rigby February 4, 2024 Dear Hermana Rigby, Hola Em, Hey sis, I loved seeing the photos of you and Sister Cox on Facebook , and it has been especially nice to receive communication through Sister Reber. I am so grateful for Sister Magleby. She worked at the Pizza Factory years ago with your aunt and uncles. She even played the piano for Uncle Chris when he sang to Aunt Jen at their wedding reception. The Weaver and Giles families go way back! What a blessing that she can give you hugs. I can't wait to talk to you Wednesday and hear all about your adventures. As you can imagine, I pray for you A LOT and worry about you just a little. After all, I am your mom- that's my job! Today, I taught gospel doctrine. It was a great discussion and spirit filled. I love hearing everyone's thoughts and insights. Brother Hamilton and Sister Stogner of course shared their great wisdom. They are both so great! Madsen went to sacrament meeting today- prayers answered. Dad and I both fasted for Madsen's Miracle and of course you and your training at the MTC. Maleck had great games both Wednesday and Friday. This week he plays at Delta on Wednesday and here on Friday. This is the last week of his season. It will be interesting to see what he does in Track. Stockton and Amanda did not come over today because Amanda's brother is in town. Dad won't go upstairs at all- man he loves you so much! My grades are all caught up, and I am all prepped for class tomorrow. Mariam is subbing for me while we go to cousin Troy's wife's funeral- so sad. I can't believe it is mid term already. I hope you have enjoyed your Sunday at the MTC. Maybe you got a nap? Hang in there Em- you are doing great. Crumbl cookies is pretty specific with deliveries, but I hope to have some delivered to you tomorrow. Love you so much, Talk to you soon- God Speed xo, mom February 8, 2024 It was so great to visit with you yesterday. I am so grateful you are having a great experience at the MTC. I know what it is to have anxious thoughts, and I am so sad you are experiencing them. As far as my little accident today, it could have been so much worse. Thankfully, it only dented my driver's door and tore his fender by his tire a bit- no big deal at all. Funny thing was the guy I got in the accident with was one of your GHA advisors, Bryant Pace. He was super cool about the accident and after we talked a bit, he asked if I was your mom. I said, "yep" and then he went on to say how amazing you are (Like I know, right). He said you were one of his favorites, and he was sure you would be a great missionary. It has snowed all afternoon and evening- hence the accident. Dad and I just got in from sweeping the paths at the restaurant, shop, rental, and house. It was fun to spend time with him. We have the strangest dates. 

 Madsen is closing tonight, so it's just the 3 of us. Maleck of course is watching outdoor boys and dad has joined him. I hope Sister Magleby (Lara's sister) brought you your surprise tonight, and it helps you sleep better. Emma, please trust in the Lord and put your faith over your fears. I love you! Go TEAM Jesus God Speed, Mom

 February 12, 2024 

 Hermana Rigby, Hey Em, It is past my bedtime, but I wanted to drop you a little note. It has been very cold since Wednesday, but finally the sun came out today. Hooray! We enjoyed the Super Bowl yesterday as a family. I have to admit that is the only Superbowl I have watched from beginning to end. Thankfully, our team the Chiefs won Maleck ended his basketball season on a strong note with over 15 points. He will start track next week. Who knows what he will do. Mariam seems to be excited to have him! Dad has spent a lot of time with me lately, and I love it! Saturday we went on a drive and out to dinner at the little restaurant in Kanarraville- so fun! 

 Madsen has been working a lot, but today when he came in from work he had his bible and Doctrine and Covenants- this is a good sign. Stockton and Amanda joined us for the Super Bowl and that made the gathering even more SUPER!!! Seleck and Leydi will be coming next weekend for her baby shower. It will be fun to spend some time with them. I teach the Sunday School Lesson this week- any thoughts on 2 Nephi 3-5? Send them my way! I can't wait to hear about your week on Wednesday. I hope you received the items from amazon and Love Olive Co. You should also receive a package from me! ILove and miss you, but I truly would not want you anywhere else doing anything else! xo, mom Keep praying, Keep Smiling- good things are coming your way God Speed!

 February 18, 2024

 I loved your pic with Sister Magleby today, and I was glad you didn't look sick. I have been praying constantly for you! I hope you are feeling much better, and that you are enjoying having Sister Cox back. Look for your medicine tomorrow. Maleck's Patriarchal blessing was powerful. He has great things in store for him. I will ask him to share his thoughts and impressions as it is his to share. Dad and I enjoyed a great Valentine week. We spent a lot of time together. It was so fun. It was like we were kids again. Madsen went to church today- Hurrah.

 The hunt for the General Manager of Papa Johns Cedar City continues! It would be so nice to find one. Amanda and Stockton are preparing for their trip to San Diego for Amanda's work training

. Seleck and Leydi are coming this weekend for the baby shower. I am going to try and go up in March next week for the shower up there.

 I love my Church calling. I love the Book of Mormon- I am so grateful for my many blessings. I am so grateful for you. Almost daily, I go to call out for you, and I realize you are not around- of course my heart breaks a bit, and then I am very grateful for where you ARE. I am so proud of you!

 Maleck starts track on Tuesday- this is going to be interesting. I signed up for VASA- It has been fun to go. Now I just need to eat less sugar. Tomorrow, I have the day off. We are going to try and go on a side by side ride, and I hope a hike. Cross your fingers- you know how things go around here! I am hosting book club Tuesday night. We are discussing Jane Austen's Emma- we will also discuss you. We are going to have a tea party since Austen is British. Suzanne is helping me with the food. It will be fun to see everyone! 

 I invite you to study Nephi 2 :27- what makes you happy? and Elder Rasband's Talk The Things of my Soul! I love this talk so much! Here are a few highlights May I share with you some of the things of my soul? These things apply to all who seek to be true disciples of Jesus Christ. Ten would be a good, round number. Today I am giving you seven with the hope that you will complete eight, nine, and ten from your own experiences.

 First, love God the Father and Jesus Christ, our Savior. Jesus decreed the first great commandment: “Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.”7 President Nelson declared his devotion to God, our Eternal Father, and to His Son, Jesus Christ, when he was called to lead the Lord’s Church, saying, “I know Them, love Them, and pledge to serve Them—and you—with every remaining breath of my life.”8 So first, love the Father and the Son. Second, “Love thy neighbour.”9 That is not just a good idea; it’s the second great commandment. Your neighbors are your spouse and family, ward members, work colleagues, roommates, those not of our faith, those needing a helping hand, and, frankly, everyone. The essence of “love thy neighbour” is voiced in the hymn “Love One Another.”

10 President Nelson reminds us, “When we love God with all our hearts, He turns our hearts to the well-being of others.”

11 Third, love yourself. This is where many struggle. Isn’t it curious that loving ourselves seems to come less easily than loving others? Yet the Lord has said, “Love thy neighbour as thyself.”

12 He values the divinity within us, and so must we. When we are heavy laden with mistakes, heartaches, feelings of inadequacy, disappointment, anger, or sin, the power of the Savior’s Atonement is, by divine design, one of the things that lifts the soul. Fourth, keep the commandments. The Lord has made it clear: “If ye love me, keep my commandments.”

13 Strive each day to be and do a little better and to press forward in righteousness. Fifth, always be worthy to attend the temple. I call it being recommended to the Lord. Whether you have access to a temple or not, being worthy of a current temple recommend keeps you firmly focused on the things that matter, the covenant path. Sixth, be joyful and cheerful. “Be of good cheer, and do not fear,”

14 the Lord has said. Why? How, when challenges face us at every turn? Because of the promise made by Jesus Christ: “I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you.”

15 President Nelson describes the restored gospel as “a message of joy!”

16 And he explains, “The joy we feel has little to do with the circumstances of our lives and everything to do with the focus of our lives.”

17 Seventh, follow God’s living prophet. 

 Love and miss you EM Keeping working hard and Be faithful and obedient, but don't forget to LAUGH and share your beautiful smile.

 XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXXOOXXO mom February 19, 2024

 Hey Team Jesus Hey Friends,

 You are all scattered across the continents- It's fun to think about all of the exciting places you are experiencing, and the many lives you are impacting. I am so very proud of you all! It is Sunday evening here and the sun is about to dip behind Three Peaks. There are few sunsets that can rival those of Southern Utah.

 I am so very grateful for the beauties which Heavenly Father created for us to enjoy! I see some of your parents often, others not so often, but we always take a minute to talk about you. I ran into Sundi at the wrestling send off, I see Patricia quite often on our way into school, I wave hi to Michelle around the neighborhood, and I pass Melissa on her evening walks. I see young Rollins in the Hallway, and Kass Taylor is just as amazing as the original Myka. No wonder you are all amazing. I see Jim in the hallways, and Rushton in stud gov along with Averi, Jack, and Derek- love your families. 

 News from Canyon View The CVHS Girls' Wrestling Team took State- so incredible. The Girls' basketball Team advances to the state tournament this week in Richfield. The Boys' Basketball team lost a heartbreaker in overtime to Union. Jace Farrow played an incredible game, making the three point shot which sent the Falcons to OT. Yep, I cried a few tears at that loss. I am waiting to hear the results on state swim. It seems strange to be winding down third quarter and prepping for 4th- yep those of you may be especially sad that you won't be making Hamlet's castle with me again- ha, ha! 

 Life in the Rigby home has become a little more quiet without our Em, but I am so grateful she has joined Team Jesus. What a great time to be a missionary and take part in the gathering of Israel. 

Since I will soon be Nana Rigby- can you believe it? I am throwing a baby shower this weekend for Seleck and Leydi. Madsen, Maleck, Rigby and I are trying where to go for spring break. I am sure it will end up being a deer trail- that's okay, I have become accustomed to the sage brush and pinion trees.

 Today, I taught Gospel Doctrine- we discussed 2 Nephi 3-5 A few of my thoughts: Chapter 3- the four Josephs- I wonder what Joseph Smith thought of as was translating this chapter? Did he realize it was testifying of him? Did you consider the similarities of tribulation Joseph of Eygypt, Lehi's son Joseph, and Joseph Smith Junior Experienced? Take a minute and examine your testimony of the Prophet of the Restoration by reading the hymn Praise to the Man- So powerful! Chapter 4 Lehi knows he is going to die and leaves some parting words with his sons- I get a little choked up here. And then of course verses 15-35- Nephi's Psalm- absolutely beautiful scripture. Have you ever considered writing your own Psalm- Do It! Chapter 6- This is a sensitive topic- a sister from Ecuador in my class had a few questions regarding the cursing- here is some Doctrinal help from CFM! In Nephi’s day the curse of the Lamanites was that they were “cut off from [the Lord’s] presence … because of their iniquity” (2 Nephi 5:20–21). This meant that the Spirit of the Lord was withdrawn from their lives. When Lamanites later embraced the gospel of Jesus Christ, “the curse of God did no more follow them” (Alma 23:18). Prophets affirm in our day that dark skin is not a sign of divine disfavor or cursing. President Russell M. Nelson declared: “I assure you that your standing before God is not determined by the color of your skin. Favor or disfavor with God is dependent upon your devotion to God and His commandments and not the color of your skin” (“Let God Prevail,” Ensign or Liahona, Nov. 2020, 94). As Nephi taught, the Lord “denieth none that come unto him, black and white, bond and free, male and female; … all are alike unto God” (2 Nephi 26:33). And of my favorite verse from Chapter 6 - verse 27 :and it came to pass that we lived after the manner of happiness." I testify to you that Joseph Smith is the prophet of this dispensation. I enjoy the blessings I have today because a 14 year old boy read scripture, went into the wilderness to pray, and saw God the Father and His Son Jesus Christ. I love the Gospel- it changes lives. It has changed my life, and the lives of my ancestors.

 Godspeed my Friends, go and do Good- and Remember, Don't Forget to PRAY!

 Lots of Love to all of you- you are in my thoughts and prayers. xoxox oxoxoxo Amy February 

24, 2024 Hola, amiga,

 It is late, and I just finished reading Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen- yes I am a book nerd. I actually don’t feel well, so it feels good to be cuddled in bed. Today we had a lovely shower for Leydi and baby girl rigby. A small crowd came- grandma weaver, Laura wright, Gia miller- Leydi’s friends First and Crystal, Suzanne, Abby, Elena, Annie, Jen, dream, and about 5 ladies from Leydi’s Spanish ward. We visited, enjoyed far too much sugar, played a few games, and then Leydi opened her gifts- so many cute gifts- Leydi was perfectly content and very grateful. I am so grateful to those who came.

 I can Hardly believe March is almost here- seleck and leydi will go to church with us. It is ward conference tomorrow and I have been asked to give the closing prayer. I love all things Sunday. It will be good to see Stockton and Amanda. I hope they enjoyed San Diego. It is the first of the month so dad is a bit grouchy. Madsen works a lot, but visited with us for a bit tonight. Maleck enjoyed going to 2000 flushes with dad and seleck today during the shower. I hope you are doing GREAT! Keep your chin up Emma. I love you so much, and I am grateful to you for the great example you are to all of us! I hope you have a great Sabbath.

 I love you- God Speed! 

 Xoxoxoxo mom

 February 27, 2024 Hermana, Hi Em...I love seeing the photos you share. It looks like mission life at the MTC is quite the adventure! Today, I used your position paper that you wrote for Miss Smith as an example in my Junior English classes. Such a good paper! I am about to head out the door, but I wanted to say hi. I need to run some errands before I go to the school board meeting (they are honoring CVHS wrestling and drill teams this evening) as well as some items on the agenda will greatly impact CVHS. And then I am getting my haircut and then It is Peer review night at the school from 8-10 for my junior students. I will be glad with 10 pm rolls around, and I am excited to have my hair cut! I can't wait to talk to you tomorrow. 

 You are the BEST! Xo, mom

 February 28, 2024 I loved, loved talking to you today. It really cheered my spirits. I hope it did yours. Emma you can do this. Heavenly Father knows you can do this. He did not set you up to fail! Keep the faith... God Speed Someone is waiting for you in California I love you! Look for cookies tomorrow!

 March 1, 2024

 Thinking of you today... "If we constantly focus only on the stones in our mortal path, we will almost surely miss the beautiful flower or cool stream provided by the loving Father who outlined our journey. Each day can bring more joy than sorrow when our mortal and spiritual eyes are open to God's goodness."

 March 10, 2024 Em, Wow, I can't wait to talk to you. I am crossing my fingers, hoping tomorrow is your P Day. I can't wait to hear all about everything! I am so glad you got to see Stockton and Amanda at the airport- super cool! It has been a very relaxing weekend here. Maleck drove us to St. George Saturday, and we got him some spikes. I am super proud of him for sticking it out in track. It will be interesting to see how he does. Tuesday is his first meet at CHS. He really opened up to me and we really talked- he is such a great kid. I am so proud of him. Saturday afternoon I took a nap, did some cleaning and laundry, and then we watched a movie. It has been a beautiful Sunday. Raeghan came to dinner. Afterwards, we chatted and then she and Lily were going to go to the fireside- Elder Bednar came to speak at the centrum- super cool! Madsen went to church today, and he has been pleasant this week. Dad conducted sacrament meeting today, and he did a great job. It was an awesome meeting. He asked me to speak in two weeks- 

March 24th - my topic is Knowing Christ. Please send your thoughts. This week (Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday) the boys will head to Burley and pick up the booths and going fishing on the Snake River when they return. I have school Wednesday, but I will take the watch on Thursday and Friday. I also need to plan my creative writing unit- I am super excited about it! Dad and I are going on a little get away on Saturday and Sunday. It will be nice to spend some time.

 I loved Relief Society today. The topic was Elder Alan T. Phillips, of the Seventy, God Knows and Loves You! The sisters on the ward provided some great insight. He bore truth of the following three points: I. We are Children of God II. The Redemptive Power of Jesus Christ is real III. Heavenly Father’s Love is real Here are a few of my favorite quotes from his talk, H President M. Russell Ballard shared: “There is one important identity we all share now and forever. … That is that you are and have always been a son or daughter of God. … Understanding this truth—really understanding it and embracing it—is life-changing.”3 Do not misunderstand or devalue how important you are to your Father in Heaven. You are not an accidental by-product of nature, a cosmic orphan, or the result of matter plus time plus chance. Where there is design, there is a designer. Elder Phillipos How we treat one another truly matters. President Russell M. Nelson teaches, “The Savior’s message is clear: His true disciples build, lift, encourage, persuade, and inspire.” Remember Em, Jesus Christ knows and loves you! He is rooting for you, and so are well.

 Talk to you soon! 

xoxxoxoxo, Mom

 March 10, 2024

 Hello around the world! The sun came out this morning and it was beautiful, and my daffodil bulbs are about to burst. We just wrapped up the third quarter (hallelujah- The Research Paper and we are almost finished with Watership Down). I can hardly believe that in just a short time, I will have completed my fourth year at CVHS- where does the time go? This quarter it is on to Macbeth and Hamlet- yep we're going to build Hamlet's castles again- for those of you who I taught, I know the castle was a personal favorite! Stud gov is winding down. We will hold the SBO election meeting at the end of the month. Big News from CVHS- there was a fire in the oven in Mrs. Spencer's kitchen. Yep, Pro Start was making lunch for the faculty when a student put a plastic tray into the oven- whoops- Thankfully, it was right before lunch, and school resumed as normal for 4th period. Poor Mrs. Spencer. Needless to say, there was no faculty luncheon- ha ha! I also had a student tell me that I drive him crazy more than any other teacher because I make him do things he doesn't want to do. A parent told me that I lacked connection with my students and needed to improve- so not a great week for me. Crossing fingers this week is better. The faculty all wore t shirts on March 1st that were made for Denny's birthday. On the back it had all of his favorite sayings. Not sure he liked the attention, but he appreciated the love. Miss Madsen and myself have been invited to present at a technology conference next week- really not my thing, but it should be interesting. I love reading Brock and Myka's letters--- hint, hint... please add me to your email lists, so I can keep track of you and pray for you! I know some days are better than others as a missionary. I know some days you may wonder if what you are doing matters, but please remember it does. When you are sad and a little lonely, please know I am praying and rooting for you all. You each possess unique gifts that God needs to Gather Israel. What a great time to be a Gatherer. Focus on your missionary purpose and put your faith in Christ! You all are the BEST ... now go Gather Israel!

  God Speed!

 Xo, Amy

 A quote from the lesson in Relief Society today: Elder Alan T. Phillips of the Seventy God knows and Loves you! Our Savior’s mission was to provide both a way to return to Heavenly Father and relief in the journey. The Savior knows through His experience how to support us through life’s challenges.17 Make no mistake: Christ is our rescuer and the healer of our souls. As we exercise faith, He helps us press forward through hardships. He continues to extend His loving and merciful invitation: “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. “Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; … and ye shall find rest unto your souls.”18 The metaphor of the yoke is powerful. As President Howard W. Hunter explained: “The yoke was a device … that allowed the strength of a second animal to be linked and coupled with the effort of a single animal, sharing and reducing the heavy labor of the [task in hand]. A burden that was overwhelming or perhaps impossible for one to bear could be equitably and comfortably borne by two bound together with a common yoke.”19 President Nelson taught: “You come unto Christ to be yoked with Him and with His power, so that you’re not pulling life’s load alone. You’re pulling life’s load yoked with the Savior and Redeemer of the world.”

20 March 17, 2024

 1. Experience life with joy Focus on joy- it will enable you to endure the cross. The joy has little to do with the circumstances of our our lives and everything to do with the focus of our lives- President Nelson 2.give our will to his will We must experience life in the way Christ did we must have experiences that cause us to beg that the cup be removed from us President romeril- miracles will always come The blanket, the pillow, and the wedding ring I will be your light in the wilderness… we will see miracles! Thoughts from stake conference I love you Em Happy sabbath!

 March 17, 2024 more notes from Stake conference

 1. Living prophet on the earth- hallelujah! - follow him- focus on his propose - Russell M Nelson is a prophet seer and revelatory- focus on him and that will get us where we need to be.

 2 the Book of Mormon will keep u safe and being u joy in your life. - there is the lord’s and then there is the hard way - the Book of Mormon will help you find your way home! “Read this book to find your way home! Ezra Taft Benson taught: “There is a power in the book which will begin to flow into your lives the moment you begin a serious study of the book. You will find greater power to resist temptation. You will find the power to avoid deception. You will find the power to stay on the strait and narrow path.” Book of Mormon The Book of Mormon is the manual for our day…. Nothing can replace the actual manual, read the book!

 3. The temple can change your life Go with a concern, questions, struggles- God will speak to you! Be worthy of a temple recommend! Every effort you make to qualify yourself for a temple recommend will allow you to Hear Him when you attend the temple Patriarch grimshaw- temples are just as much for the living as the dead. What will bring joy in our lives- follow the prophet, read the Book of Mormon, attend the temple! 

 March 19, 2024 Nighttime thoughts from Hamptom Inn SLC

 Hermana, Hey sis,

 I just wanted to tuck you in with a night time thought. I am loving the CFM reading for the week- 2 nephi 31-33. Take a minute and read specifically 2 nephi 32:5- think about how scripture study and prayer work together- literally show and tell Then read 3 Nephi 33:6- notice how Nephi uses the phrase “my Jesus” not just Jesus. He is your Jesus too, Em. Anytime you are sad or feel alone he is there for you. Hold onto that thought Em🩷 I love you sooooooo much. 

Sweet dreams!

 xo, mom 

 March 23, 2024

 Hey sis, It is 10 degrees here and wind is howling outside- you know how spring is here in CC- ugh! I have spent the evening preparing my talk for church tomorrow, and I wanted to share it with you. I have been gathering my thoughts all week and have been letting them marinate- I pray the spirit speaks to the hearts of those present and that I can be led by the spirit. I love you so much, and I have been very prayerful in your behalf this past week. I pray there will be angels round about you! 

xo, Mom can't wait to talk to you Monday

My talk on Easter Sunday 2024

 Good morning, Brothers and Sisters! first off, I want to take a moment and express gratitude for the opportunity to speak today. I take this assignment under great reverence as today is Palm Sunday. Palm Sunday marks the beginning of the last week of the life ofJesus Christ. Imagine being in the crowd that Sunday morning long ago as Jesus rode into Jerusalem on a donkey while the crowd waved branches and shouted, “Hosanna blessed is the King of Israel that cometh in the name of the Lord” Elder Rasband stated, “Though we do not stand at the gates of Jerusalem today with palms in our hands, the time will come when, as prophesied in Revelation, ‘a great multitude, which no man could number, of all nations, and kindreds, and people, and tongues, [will stand] before the throne, and before the Lamb, clothed with white robes, and palms in their hands.’ (Revelation 7:9).” The topic of my speaking assignment is a perfect match to set the stage for Easter. 

 Indulge me for a minute as I share with you a short anecdote of three men’s experience as they passed to the other side of the veil. Upon approaching the veil, these men were simply asked one question, “What does the Savior look like? The first man when questioned “what does Jesus look like?” answered, “why he has long hair and wears sandals, and he goes about doing miracles.” The questioner looked at the eager man and responded, “Well that’s pretty close. Step to the side for moment please.” The second man when questioned “What does Jesus look like?” Responded, “why he was a mighty King.” The questioner responded, “Why yes he is, but what does he look like?” And the third man when he approached the veil fell to his knees and reverently uttered, “My Lord My God.” As we ponder the experience of these three men, perhaps, we might ask first, what separated the third man from the first two? Second, which of these men might we be? And third, how did he come to know the Savior rather than just knowing ABOUT the Savior? Elder David A. Bednar addressed the topic of coming to know the Savior, Jesus Christ in his 2016 conference address entitled “If ye had Known me.” Elder Bednar opened his remarks by referencing the Savior’s words at the conclusion of the Sermon on the Mount. He emphasized the eternal truth that “only by doing the will of the Father is the saving grace of the Son obtainable.” The Savior then went on to boldly declare as found in the 7th chapter Matthew of the New Testament, “Not everyone that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. “Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? “And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.”2 Elder Bednar noted, “The phrase, ye never knew was changed in the Joseph Smith Translation to “Ye never knew me.”3 The Parable of the Ten Virgins illustrates the point Knowing the Savior. The five that were ready knew the Savior. They had oil for their lamps But the five that were foolish, hearing that the Bridegroom cometh hurried to obtain oil for their lamps. The foolish virgins failed to acquired the oil throughout their journey. They focused on the product or the outcome. This past week, I attended a technology conference. Much of this conference addressed or referenced the use of Artificial Intelligence in the classroom, its present impact upon education, and where AI is headed. I couldn’t help but draw a parallel between this experience and my assigned speaking topic. As a teacher, in order to support authentic learning, I must focus on the journey of writing as a process for my students and not just a product. In other words, my students must meet checkpoints as they write, demonstrating their learning along the way. In a sense, they must fill their lamps along the way. This will help to ensure that the writing they produce is theirs. Believe it or not, I have students who do not meet the check points, but somehow miraculously turn in their papers or the product. These students failed my class. As the due date for the paper approached, they scurried to demonstrate they were prepared – they went to find the oil. The result was an inauthentic product- much like the 5 virgins who rushed to fill their lamps with oil. Elder Bednar offered four ways in which we can come to know our Savior as we journey here in mortality so that we will not be rushing to fill our lamps as Christ comes much like he did on that Palm Sundy nearly two thousand years ago. These four ways are much like the check points I offer my students. They are as follow: Exercise Faith in Jeus Christ, follow him, Serve Him, and believe him. First, how do we Exercise Faith in Jesus Christ? 

 Spring is here brothers and sisters, the tulips are blooming and my daffodils are about to burst. Soon it will be time to till the ground and plant our gardens. As we plant our gardens, we must plant, nurture, and believe our garden will grow. The same is true of our faith. Alma declared, But behold, if ye will awake and arouse your faculties, even to an experiment upon my words, and exercise a particle of faith, yea, even if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you, even until ye believe in a manner that ye can give place for a portion of my words. Exercise is a verb- it requires work. We must work as we exercise Faith in Jesus Christ. And Even if we only have a particle of faith, we must believe. Following Jesus builds upon our Exercising faith in him. I love the story found in the bible where Jesus approaches Simon and Andrew on the shore of Galilee and asks them to follow him. Their response is something we can all learn from. “And they straightway left their nets, and followed him.”17 Straightway is defined as “in a direct course. Right away, immediately.” Simon and Andrew left straightway- at that very moment.

 I love how Simon and Andrew believed Jesus. Their nets represented their livelihood, their mortal responsibilities- we each have our own “nets.” These might be our jobs or careers, our hobbies, our friends- those things of worldly importance. The Savior counsels us in 3 Nephi that we must become like him. We must take up our cross, drop our nets, deny ourselves of all ungodliness, keep the commandments and follow him.” This approach helps us through our journey not by doing it in grandiose ways, but as Elder Bednar says “Rather, steady and sustained progress along the covenant pathway is the course of life that is pleasing to Him.” The next step on the journey to coming to know Jesus Christ is to SERVE HIM- For how knoweth the man the master whom he has not served who is a stranger unto him, and is far from the thoughts and intents of his heart?” Our sweet missionary daughter is learning to serve Jesus Christ as she has been transplanted from the still waters of southern Utah to the metropolis of a suburb of Los Angeles where she struggles to learn the Spanish language. Her heart rumbles for home, but she seeks to serve her Savior. This past week she helped a young boy say a prayer for the very first time. In that one small act, she opened the windows of heaven to one of God’s own. And then afterwards, as promised she played basketball with that same boy. Hermana Rigby is learning to serve with all of her heart, might, mind and strength. She is also learning to love those she serves- She is indeed exercising faith in Jesus Christ as she follows him and serves him.

 Finally, Elder Bednar counsels us to Believe Jesus Christ. Just as there is more to knowing Jesus than knowing ABOUT him, there is more to belief than knowing. Rather we must believe what we know. It is only through the journey that we come to know our savior. Each of our journeys is different. Sadly, a few weeks ago, we buried the wife of my dear cousin. She was only 51 years old. She was a beautiful, talented, sunshine giving soul. As each of her children talked about her at the funeral, they referenced her many strengths and joys, and the knowledge she shared with them. However, there was no mention of our Savior’s name. They spoke nothing of her “Knowing Jesus” and whereby how they had come to know him. I knew she knew Jesus, but her children failed to see how she knew Jesus as she exercised faith in him, followed him, served him, and believed him. I love the parable taught by Jesus about the Prodigal Son. My understanding and feeling about of this parable has changed and matured as I have experienced the various seasons of my life. Finally, it hit me. The real reward was not the fatted calf and the acceptance of the son by his father as he was welcomed home. The real reward was the relationship. When the young son left and squandered his inheritance- he did not lose just his worldly treasures, he lost that which is hard to replace- he lost time. He could never get back those days of knowing his father. Of course, he can begin again within the welcoming arms of his father, but the other son who remained obedient gained the relationship, the trust, the years of memories and tutoring by his father because he chose to know him. But he had to learn like all of us that is the journey with our father that matters not necessarily the product or the outcome. I testify that the day is coming when each of us will stand before our Savior Jesus Christ. Perhaps, we may be asked the questioned, “What does he look like? “I pray that each of us will know him because we will be like him as we choose to exercise faith in him, follow him, serve him and BELIEVE him. May we be there at that great day when Jesus comes again- may we wave our branches and shout in joy “Hosanna blessed is the King of Israel that cometh in the name of the Lord” Happy Holy week, I pray we can each come to know our Savior, even Jesus Christ this Easter. Bear testimony, close. March 25, 2024 Saints are sinners who get back up "The devil is trying to frustrate you because he knows God's going to help you win this battle. Keep going." The first day of His last week. We find Him at the Mount of Olives preparing to enter Jerusalem - His mind and His heart fixed on the plan. I picture Him there. Knowing what this meant. Knowing that His triumphant entry into the city would end just days later in the horror of the cross. He knew. He knew that the people He loved so much - the ones laying down palms and clothes, shouting “Hosanna!” as He rode in - would sneer insults soon enough. He knew His friend would betray Him with a kiss. He knew the stories spun against Him. The rejection. The hate. He knew. He knew. And even in the knowing, He sends for the donkey. And today as He enters the city, and steps into His last week, He knew about you. And about me too. Because He steps forward today for us. He gets up on that donkey and makes His way into the last days of The Plan for us. What would we have done that week? Would we have greeted Him with palms and “Hosanna!” today and then join the masses screaming, “Crucify Him” on Friday? While I picture Him there - Jesus, making His way with more love than I can fathom into the city - I also look for myself in that crowd. Where is my heart as He looks me in the eyes? How do I honour Him? How do I follow Him? How do I love Him back? How do we show Him - Jesus, the Son of God, the King of Kings, the Messiah. How do we show Him we stand with Him and for Him? We decide to not look away. We step forward with Him. We stand for Him and with Him. We give everything we have to help fulfill His mission. We say “yes.” So as we head into this last week together, stepping forward with Jesus, may we keep our minds and our hearts fixed on the plan. May we not look away. May we remember what He’s doing and Who He is. Jesus, We see You. We see what You’re doing and what You’ve done. Thank You for staying fixed on the plan. For knowing what You were facing, and doing it anyway. For not changing Your mind. For making a way for us. We’re with You Jesus. Amen ❤️ “And when he entered Jerusalem, the whole city was stirred up, saying “Who is this?” And the crowds said, “This is the prophet Jesus, from Nazareth of Galilee.” Matt.21:10-11 "The Lord is aware of the challenges you face. He knows you, he loves you, and I promise he will send angels to help you." Nicole Córdova Loayza | marzo 22, 2024 | 4 min de lectura Un domingo por la mañana, nuestro hijo adolescente y otros dos poseedores del sacerdocio fueron a administrar la Santa Cena, como siempre. Retiraron la tela blanca, pero para su sorpresa no había pan. Uno de ellos se dirigió al salón de preparación con la esperanza de encontrar un poco de pan. Sin embargo, no había nada. Finalmente, nuestro hijo, muy preocupado, fue a buscar al obispo y le contó lo que sucedía. Entonces, el sabio obispo se puso de pie, explicó la situación a la congregación y preguntó: “¿Qué pasaría si la mesa de la Santa Cena estuviera vacía hoy porque no hubo expiación?” santa cena ¿Cómo sería la vida si no hubiera pan porque no hubo crucifixión, ni agua porque no hubo derramamiento de sangre? También te puede interesar: Tres principios de la Expiación para vivir diariamente He pensado en eso con frecuencia, ¿cómo sería la vida si no hubiera pan porque no hubo crucifixión, ni agua porque no hubo derramamiento de sangre? Si no hubiera habido Expiación, ¿cuáles serían las consecuencias para nosotros? Por supuesto, ahora la pegunta es discutible, pero pone en perspectiva nuestra total dependencia del Señor. Hacer esta pregunta y responderla solo aumenta nuestra conciencia y aprecio por el Salvador. Lo que podría haber sucedido, incluso con los “justos”, si no se hubiera realizado el sacrificio expiatorio, nos estremece. Primer0 March 28, 2024 "You go as you Grow" Good morning🩷 I woke u o thinking about you! Go make it a great day Emma. In this the sacred season of Holy Week nearly 2000 years ago , Christ instituted the sacrament and washed the feet of his disciples. Find someone to serve today. Render an act of service- big or small for your companion. Enjoy the sunshine and giggle with the daffodils.

 You’ve got this Em! 

 Xoxo Godspeed, Mom 

 March 28, 2024 Emma, I would like for you to prayerfully consider these options before deciding anything. Also, please remember that I have spent most of my day in prayer as I offer these because as much as I love the 19 year old Emma, I must consider the 23 year old Emma, the 30 year old Emma, and so fourth- what is best for them? As you visit with your Mission President, I pray he will consider these as well.

 1. A companion change 

2. An area change 3. A change from speaking spanish to english

 4. prescribed medicine to take the edge off your anxiety- you would be surprised what this can do.

 5. Therapy All of these changes could relieve some great concerns on your end.

 There are things that can be done! Also, what will happen if you come home. Are you just homesick? Or is there something more?Emma, you wanted so much to be a missionary. What changed your mind? If you came home, there is an option to be a service missionary, would you consider this? What will you do if you come home? The grass is not always greener, Emma. . I will lovingly welcome you home, but you must prepare yourself for the gossip, the looks, the questions. It will be hard. Please consider also that our family at this moment is fragmented. Leydi and Amanda are so very different, and it is causing division among us. None of you seemed to have embraced Leydi as I have, and quite frankly it disappoints me. I rarely see Stockton, and when I do he isn't always kind to me. Amanda has been very sick and she is not quite herself. She seems to have pulled away from me. I am not sure Madsen even believes in Jesus. He makes it look like he goes to church, but I am not sure he really goes. Maleck misses you dreadfully, but he has grown because of your service and sacrifice. I know once you make your mind up, it is almost impossible to change it. Please let the holy ghost be your companion. What does he REALLY want you to do? Ask for a priesthood blessing, Emma. Talk with your mission president, listen to his counsel, listen to general conference with an open heart and mind. Please speak openly with your companion. Is coming home really the answer? 

Life is hard Emma- it was meant to be. There are so many things I wish I could do differently as a mother Emma. I can't and I won't give up on Hermana Rigby because I see what she will BECOME. You are Hermana Rigby Emma. I am not quitting on you. 

 I love you, God Speed!

 xoxo, Mom PS the Hamiltons are down there and have a package for you. I hope you enjoy its contents. 

April 1, 2024

 Hi sis, Thanks so much for sharing your missionary experiences with me. I loved hearing about all of your friends, and your gospel studies. I will be praying for Christian as his baptismal date approaches as well as the others! How exciting to be a part of the great gathering. I really enjoyed celebrating Holy Week. This year is the first time that I have been super intentional. From Palm Sunday to Good Friday, to resurrection Sunday, it was deeply powerful to me. Your service as a missionary made my focus possible Emma. I prayed for you incessantly, and I went to the temple twice last week. My prayers for you will continue. I have also set the goal to attend the temple weekly and rededicate myself to consistent scripture study. I would like to think that in some small way that I am serving with you. You are doing something really HARD Emma and I want to do my part. I know sacrifice brings forth blessings. I really hoped you enjoyed your Easter basket- you are the only one I did anything for…🤩🤩🤩 I am also working on exercising daily and eating better- more protein less sugar. I am thinking I want to do a 50 mile backpacking hike for my 50th with dad. Do you think I can do it? It will be hard in know, but I need to do hard things! Plus, I want to save all the fun trips for next summer when you come home🫶 I look forward to FHE with you next week. It is going to be fun to gather! Thank you for bringing our family together. It means a lot! I am going to enjoy the break. When it is over, it is a 7 week sprint to the finish line- elections, junior prom, poetry unit, Hamlet, Macbeth- all the things😆 Love you so much- you are never far from my heart, and you are always in my prayers! 

 God Speed, Emma Xoxo, mom

 “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart. Lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he will direct thy paths.” 

 April 4, 2024

 A Borrowed Tomb and the man who buried Jesus For Cali as she waits for Jesus

 A Borrowed Tomb and the man who buried Jesus. 

For Cali as she waits for Jesus

 I have been looking for Jesus, Before the Cross.

 I pondered His triumphal entry into Jerusalem On a Donkey, Marking Palm Sunday-- 

 I have shouted Hosanna, My plea to God to save.

 I imagined him cleansing the temple.

 I journeyed to the Mount As he tutored the crowds. 

 Wednesday? I wondered what he did.

 I watched him Bathe his disciples' Feet, Break bread, Pour wine.

 Remembering, In Gethsemane,

 He suffered and bled, In holy anguish.

 Betrayed, Thirty pieces of silver, 

 Taken to trial- Condemned.

On Good Friday, He carried a cross,

 Wore a crown of thorns, 

 To Calvary amongst criminals,

 Nailed- he hung Until the ninth hour. 

 The last breath.

 A Garden tomb. 

 Saturday, they waited 

 The waiting was hard It is always hard.

 I have waited. He came. 

 He always comes.

 Hallelujah- he lives

 I look for Jesus after the cross.

 He will come, He always comes.

 The Story of the Garden Tomb- It was a text message from my son Seleck that gave life to the many thoughts of my heart these past few weeks as I intentionally celebrated Holy week and prepared for General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. These were his words, "Call me I have something very important to talk to you about." His findings: He traced my paternal Weaver line to Joseph of Arimathea- the wealthy, member of the Sanhedrin who took no part in the condemnation of Jesus but rather secretly followed him as a disciple. Joseph asked Pilate for Jesus's body and buried it in his own tomb. After the resurrection of our Savior Jesus Christ, Joseph of Armiathea went to Wales bringing with him Christianity. I wonder, would I have done the same? Would I have asked for his body, buried it in my tomb, and then have left my homeland to take his message to another land, another people? It has been over 2,000 years since the resurrection of Jesus Christ. I will bury his teachings in my heart. I will roll aside the stone and shout Hosanna, Hallelujah. I will wait the second time. The Waiting is hard, it is always hard, but he will come - he always does! What are you waiting for? Forgiveness A miracle, strength, peace, comfort, healing? I think of my daughter who longs for Home. I think of my dear friend and mentor who embodies all things Jesus who is not quite ready to go Home. I think of the two grandbabies who are waiting to come to their new Home. I think of my son who isn't quite sure where HOME is. I think of my youngest son who wants to tell everyone about their Real Home. But I know in all this waiting He will say Welcome Home. Here is a record of my research - it was a rabbit hole! Humphrey Weaver ap Ieuan (about 1272-1303) was the first to bear the Wever name. He married Joyce Verch Llewllyn Jenkin (1273-1375) in Herforshire, England, United Kingdom in 1297. Humprhey died at Catesly Butten Bridge Elliots. His first name may have come from the Bohuns, a celebrated family of Norman lords, who flourished at that time and who had at least five generations in succession named Humphrey. (Collins, Lori, FamilySearch) It is by following this line that the Weaver line descends from St. Joseph Ben Matthat of Arimathea (about 0041 BC Arimathaea, Ramathaim, Zophim, now Israel- 0045 death). Joseph's father Matthat ben Levi was born on the West Plank of Palestine in0080 BC. He died in Jerusalem, Israel (killed by the ordr of Herod the Great for sedition). Joseph was the father of Anna I Enygeus "The Prophetess" Anna was born in Arimethea, Judea, Tolima, Roman Empire, but died in Glastonbury, Somerset, England. Ancient Welsh tradition states the Anna was the "cousin" of "The Virgin Mary." It is from her son King Beli Ap Bran of Britain to which the Weaver line can trace its roots. Joseph of Arimathea was a member of the Sandhedrin, a rich and faithful Israelite who took no part in the condemnation of our Lord, and after the crucifixion buried His body (Matt: 27:57, Marl 15:43, Luke 23:50) See John 19:18

 from Emma April 8, 2024 I do think you are weird but I'm starting to appreciate it more and more. This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing. I saw so many yellow daphadils this week and thought about you. Love you with my whole heart, Hermana Rigby (your favorite child) 

🩷 Hiii!!! I just want to say that I love you so so much! And I hope you enjoyed general confrence this weekend!! I've been wearing the bracelet you got me with th amyanne rigby

  Mon, Apr 8, 10:46 AM to Emma

 Emma, Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feeling for me and for keeping it real. Here are a few of my thoughts… 1. I believe your fear of losing one of us took root with the loss of Raeghan’s dad. subconsciously this fear has planted itself in your mind and heart. Couple that with the many deaths you witnessed during COVID- death has become a very real thing for you. Couple that with the trauma you experienced regarding dad and my health issues at an early age. Not to mention madsen and that awful night in the trailer. Emma I believe you have experienced trauma you have never dealt with. But it is here now so let’s deal with it. Does this all make sense? I think it would be great for you to speak with the mission therapist and share this fear with her I have been working on your blog and I have just finished reading all of your letters. I know you think you can’t go on, but I know you can. Emma after I had those two miscarriages before maleck was born, it took months for the sun to shine in my life again. sometimes something reminds me of that time, and I literally weep. But you know what? One day out of no where I felt the sun again- and it was beautiful. I have read all your letters and looked and all of your photos (multiple times) and what I see is someone amazing. The truth is sometimes it just isn’t about us- it’s about those around us. Emma, even if you can’t feel the rays of sunshine today, or if you can’t feel them tomorrow, or the next day… and so on others are feeling the rays because of YOU!

 Emma we will complete this mission together. I will go to the temple weekly, I will read my scriptures daily, I will improve on ministering to my sisters, I will workout my issues with gma and gpa rigby and we will complete your charm bracelet together💕💕💕 We’ve got this Emma- one step and then another day by day minute by minute. I love you more best friend,

 Xoxoxoxoxoxo

 Mom Emma Rigby

 Mon, Apr 8, 11:22 AM

 Ahhh you made me cry mom! But good tears. I think you are very right about not dealing with trauma that I have had in the past. And death has become a very real amyanne rigby

Mon, Apr 8, 11:29 AM

 to Emma We will do this together! I love you!

 April 14, 2024

 Jacob testified of a life lived within the Lord’s covenant promises: “God … answered me in the day of my distress, and was with me in the way which I went.” Just as He did for Jacob, the Lord will answer each of us in our day of distress if we choose to tether our life with His. He has promised to walk with us Remember the five finger promise: I am with you. I will keep you safe. I will bring you home again. I will not leave you. I will keep my promise to you. Love you sweet Em I hope you are enjoying your Sunday! God will come to you when you feel distressed and broken- think of your temple garments and remember he walks with you daily! I can’t wait to talk to you tomorrow- stay on the Jesus trail- Christ will pull you along’ April 14, 2024 From Em to mom Thanks for the emails! You did have a busy week! Way to go to the temple! And read your scriptures I am so proud of you! That sounds like a great student body for next year though! Should go well! I can't believe elections already happened amd are happening! I bet you are so tiered! Have a MTn dew once in a while. It'll be good for you hahah! I'm happy that the blossoms are out and that cedar is starting to be beautiful again! That's fun you got to work woth dad even though it was long, I bet he appreciated but I bet he wishes I was there to help him though 😉 😜 Amd interesting name?? Steele? Or steeler?? I don't know how you say it hahah. But crazy I'm glad amanda is feeling better I AM SO PROUD OF MALECK! I wish I could be there to watch him!! But yeah keep food in him hahah. I heard about krue and japrix!! So cute! And Easton and Alex having another baby?!! That's crazy!! And Adelaide told me! That's awesome! I keep praying for Madsen! Don't worry. I can't imagine how much you worry about him. I'm starting to understand your hurt more and more. I love you amd you are a great mom. This week started out good but the last few days have been rough. Cried alot yesterday. I got really anxious and thought i might throw up, it was scary. I'm trying to hang in there mom. I'm trying.

 Emailed my president to see if I can start talking to the counselor. Love you! 

❤️ Way to move forward- u r doing it! ---------- Forwarded message --------- From: Emma Rigby Date: Mon, Apr 15, 2024 at 9:03 AM Subject: Re: Happy Sabbath To: amyanne rigby 

Thanks for the emails! You did have a busy week! Way to go to the temple! And read your scriptures I am so proud of you! That sounds like a great student body for next year though! Should go well! I can't believe elections already happened amd are happening! I bet you are so tiered! Have a MTn dew once in a while. It'll be good for you hahah! I'm happy that the blossoms are out and that cedar is starting to be beautiful again! That's fun you got to work woth dad even though it was long, I bet he appreciated but I bet he wishes I was there to help him though 😉 😜 Amd interesting name?? Steele? Or steeler?? I don't know how you say it hahah. But crazy I'm glad amanda is feeling better I AM SO PROUD OF MALECK! I wish I could be there to watch him!! But yeah keep food in him hahah. I heard about krue and japrix!! So cute! And Easton and Alex having another baby?!! That's crazy!! And Adelaide told me! That's awesome! I keep praying for Madsen! Don't worry. I can't imagine how much you worry about him. I'm starting to understand your hurt more and more. I love you amd you are a great mom. This week started out good but the last few days have been rough. Cried alot yesterday. I got really anxious and thought i might throw up, it was scary. I'm trying to hang in there mom. I'm trying. Emailed my president to see if I can start talking to the counselor. Love you! 

❤️ On Sun, Apr 14, 2024, 8:05 PM amyanne rigby wrote: Hey Em, I hope you have had a good week. I have had an insanely busy one, but as promised I made it to the temple. Maleck and I did baptisms Tuesday night. It was super cool to be baptized by him. I also studied my scriptures daily. I love chapter 5 of Jacob.

 Last week were student Body elections, the first prom vote, and the ACT- Yikes, maybe I should retire. Addy Young is the new Student Body President, and Dax Nicoll is the new Student Body Vice President. It was an insanely close election-- so much stress. Seth Morris will be the SB secretary and Derek Belnap will be Service rep. I think that it will be a good core. Next week are class elections. I think Maleck will run. If he doesn't, I think this will be my last year. There is just too much to juggle. The blossoms are out- finally and they are gorgeous! It is killing dad's allergies though. Dad and I spent all of Saturday building the back deck and the rental- and we didn't finish it. It was a long, but good day.

 Stockton and Amanda came to dinner today. Amanda has had a pretty good week, but she wasn't feeling well today. I feel so bad for her. They told us that they will most likely name the baby Steele Stockton Rigby- great name don't you think?

 I haven't heard much from Seleck and Leydi, but they did attend the Taylorsville temple open house. I love when my kids are doing great things

! Madsen.. hmmm I just don't know what to do. 

 We went to Juab to watch Maleck run the 400 and 200 on Friday. He got a PR in the 200. He is such a great kid, but watch out when he is hangry and tired. It was a rough post church fasting. Dad is as busy as ever, but we are going to the temple on 

Thursday- I am so excited. Not sure if you heard but Krue and Japrix are engaged and Adelaide got her mission call. Alex and Easton are expecting a baby boy in July too. All this make grandma Weaver very happy.

 Did you get my Amazon order? Mary Kay is coming. I can't wait to visit with you tomorrow. Sweet Dreams- Keep hanging in there. I love you! 

 April 19, 2024 Dad and I enjoyed a Thursday evening at the temple doing initiatory. It was a good evening. I was able to do the work for a girl named Amy. No last name was given. It is friday night and I am snuggled in bed. I just finished reading my scriptures. I teach gospel doctrine this Sunday- Enos- Words of Mormon. I hope you have enjoyed a good week. I have been praying for you. I love you Emma!

 April 22, 2024 Hey Em, After our conversation tonight, I had a really good visit with Jen, your therapist, I really like her. She shared a lot about your visit with me and she listened a lot to me as well as I shared fun Emma facts with her. She also asked that I write you this letter and share with you my own anxiety journe. Interestingly, enough I had a thought come to mind as I was driving home to an appointment with a client this evening (Iam doing a freelance piece on a local builder here for the St.George magazine).Of course my thoughts were on you and as I thought of your pain, frustration and fears- the thought ( the Holy Ghost) occurred to me that maybe you weren't just sent to the California Arcadia Mission to help bring people to Jesus Christ, but maybe you were sent to the California Arcadia Mission to meet Jen and President Jones. Maybe, Heavenly Father knew they could help you with your anxiety in such a way as no one else could. Maybe just maybe God is sending you daffodils right now although they appear to be weeds. Let me explain Emma and please Emma know that I am not trying to fix you or the situation, I simply want you to find relief.

 Here's my story. Emma anxiety comes in all shapes and forms and for you I am sure it must feel like ocean waves are constantly hitting you and you can't come up for air. Emma I struggled with anxiety for 37 years before I got any help. It was an awful way to live ( l know you are all too familiar with the anxious mom and for that I am sorry). My anxiety has impacted my friendships, my family relationships, my marriage, my mothering--- the list could go on. It also prevented me from trying new things, developing relationships, developing talents, and not being afraid. Who knows, maybe I could have learned to swim and dance if I hadn't been so anxious. It wasn't until after my heart incident that I realized that my anxiety most likely caused it.

 I never wanted that to happen again so I got help. Emma I take 20mg of citalopram everyday, and it helps me feel the joy that I missed out on for so many years. It does not take the anxiety away, but it provides relief and it enables me to cope. Of course, there are other things I have to do like exercise egularly, eat healthy, and nurture my relationship with my Heavenly Father in order to combat my anxiety monster.

 Emma, the easy thing all around would be for you to come home. I would sleep better, dad would sleep better, you would sleep better, but the easiest thing is not always the best

. And Emma I know your anxiety monster will follow you home. It will chase you wherever you go. That is just what it does. Emma, I don't want you to miss the joy. And I mean the joy on all fronts. I want you to feel the sunshine on your face, the brisk spring air on your cheek, and I want you to feel the love that our Savior , your Savior has for you. I know right now you can't feel that- your brain is working overtime and adrenaline is overpowering you.

 But the cool thing is that you get to decide from here where to go, but you have to decide.

 1. Decide to face the monster now- and win

 2. Decide to let the Savior in- allow him to carry this burden along with you. I love you sis, and I hate that you are facing this, but I believe in you, President Jones believes in you, Jen believes in you, dad believes in you, and most importantly Heavenly Father and your Savior believes in you!

 Now you must believe in you. Don't miss the daffodils Em; they are beautiful! xoxoxxoxoxo, Always, Mom

 I am grateful President Jones was able to get you in to see Jen tomorrow at 4. She is going to try and help you get out on a run! It's amazing the therapy running shoes provide. April 22, 2024 From Emma Three month mark hit 3 months today. Tbh the longest three months of my life -transfer 2 has started! -went to the temple with our friend delfino on Sunday, told him he can be ready for baptism on may 12th...we'll see if he can keep his commitments