MOMM April 8, 2024- and her reply



A Borrowed Tomb and the man who buried Jesus.

For Cali as she waits for Jesus


I have been looking for Jesus,

Before the Cross.


I pondered

His triumphal entry into Jerusalem

On a Donkey,

Marking Palm Sunday--

I have shouted

Hosanna,

My plea to God to save.



I imagined him cleansing the temple.


I journeyed to the Mount

As he tutored the crowds.


Wednesday? I wondered what he did.


I watched him

Bathe his disciples'

Feet,

Break bread,

Pour wine.

Remembering,

In Gethsemane,

He suffered and bled,

In holy anguish.

Betrayed,

Thirty pieces of silver,

Taken to trial-

Condemned


On Good Friday,

He carried a cross,

Wore a crown of thorns,

To Calvary amongst criminals,

Nailed- he hung

Until the ninth hour.

The last breath.

A Garden tomb.


Saturday, they waited

The waiting was hard

It is always hard.

I have waited.

He came.

He always comes.


Hallelujah- he lives

I look for Jesus

after the cross.

He will come,

He always comes.



The Story of the Garden Tomb- It was a text message from my son Seleck that gave life to the many thoughts of my heart these past few weeks as I intentionally celebrated Holy week and prepared for General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

These were his words, "Call me I have something very important to talk to you about."


His findings: He traced my paternal Weaver line to Joseph of Arimathea- the wealthy, member of the Sanhedrin who took no part in the condemnation of Jesus but rather secretly followed him as a disciple. Joseph asked Pilate for Jesus's body and buried it in his own tomb. After the resurrection of our Savior Jesus Christ, Joseph of Armiathea went to Wales bringing with him Christianity.


I wonder, would I have done the same? Would I have asked for his body, buried it in my tomb, and then have left my homeland to take his message to another land, another people?


It has been over 2,000 years since the resurrection of Jesus Christ. I will bury his teachings in my heart. I will roll aside the stone and shout Hosanna, Hallelujah. I will wait the second time. The Waiting is hard, it is always hard, but he will come - he always does!


What are you waiting for?

Forgiveness

A miracle,

strength,

peace,

comfort,

healing?


I think of my daughter who longs for Home.

I think of my dear friend and mentor who embodies all things Jesus who is not quite ready to go Home.

I think of the two grandbabies who are waiting to come to their new Home.

I think of my son who isn't quite sure where HOME is.

I think of my youngest son who wants to tell everyone about their Real Home.

But I know in all this waiting

He will say Welcome Home.



Here is a record of my research - it was a rabbit hole!


Humphrey Weaver ap Ieuan (about 1272-1303) was the first to bear the Wever name. He married Joyce Verch Llewllyn Jenkin (1273-1375) in Herforshire, England, United Kingdom in 1297. Humprhey died at Catesly Butten Bridge Elliots. His first name may have come from the Bohuns, a celebrated family of Norman lords, who flourished at that time and who had at least five generations in succession named Humphrey. (Collins, Lori, FamilySearch)


It is by following this line that the Weaver line descends from St. Joseph Ben Matthat of Arimathea (about 0041 BC Arimathaea, Ramathaim, Zophim, now Israel- 0045 death). Joseph's father Matthat ben Levi was born on the West Plank of Palestine in0080 BC. He died in Jerusalem, Israel (killed by the ordr of Herod the Great for sedition). Joseph was the father of Anna I Enygeus "The Prophetess" Anna was born in Arimethea, Judea, Tolima, Roman Empire, but died in Glastonbury, Somerset, England. Ancient Welsh tradition states the Anna was the "cousin" of "The Virgin Mary." It is from her son King Beli Ap Bran of Britain to which the Weaver line can trace its roots.

Joseph of Arimathea was a member of the Sandhedrin, a rich and faithful Israelite who took no part in the condemnation of our Lord, and after the crucifixion buried His body (Matt: 27:57, Marl 15:43, Luke 23:50) See John 19:18
Emma's replyApril 8, 2024

I do think you are weird but I'm starting to appreciate it more and more. This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing. I saw so many yellow daphadils this week and thought about you. 

Love you with my whole heart, Hermana Rigby (your favorite child) 


 Emma, 


 Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feeling for me and for keeping it real. Here are a few of my thoughts… 1. I believe your fear of losing one of us took root with the loss of Raeghan’s dad. subconsciously this fear has planted itself in your mind and heart. Couple that with the many deaths you witnessed during COVId- death has become a very real thing for you. Couple that with the trauma you experienced regarding dad and my health issues at an early age. Not to mention Madsen and that awful night in the trailer. Emma I believe you have experienced trauma you have never dealt with. But it is here now so let’s deal with it. Does this all make sense? I think it would be great for you to speak with the mission therapist and share this fear with her I have been working on your blog and I have just finished reading all of your letters. I know you think you can’t go on, but I know you can. Emma after I had those two miscarriages before maleck was born, it took months for the sun to shine in my life again. sometimes something reminds me of that time, and I literally weep. But you know what? One day out of no where I felt the sun again- and it was beautiful. I have read all your letters and looked and all of your photos (multiple times) and what I see is someone amazing. The truth is sometimes it just isn’t about us- it’s about those around us. Emma, even if your can’t feel the rays of sunshine today, or if you can’t feel them tomorrow, or the next day… and so on others are feeling the rays because of YOU! Emma we will complete this mission together. I will go to the temple weekly, I will read my scriptures daily, I will improve on ministering to my sisters, I will workout my issues with gma and gpa rigby and we will complete your charm bracelet togetherπŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’• We’ve got this Emma- one step and then another day by day minute by minute. I love you more best friend, Xoxoxoxoxoxo Mom Emma Rigby 11:22 AM (7 hours ago) to me Ahhh you made me cry mom! But good tears. I think you are very right about not dealing with trauma that I have had in the past. And death has become a very real thing for me as I feel everyone around me has lost someone. And you are probably right about raeghan and her dad. I definitely think that is probably where a majority of this started. I do think I need to talk to someone because my companion can tell that I am just stressed a majority of the time. Thank you for you lr love and support mom. I seriously don't think I could do this without you. You are my best friend. Hopefully this made sense I wrote it super fast. Hahah Love you 😍 amyanne rigby 11:29 AM (7 hours ago) to Emma We will do this together! I love you!












Thanks for the emails! You did have a busy week! Way to go to the temple! And read your scriptures I am so proud of you! 

That sounds like a great student body for next year though! Should go well! I can't believe elections already happened amd are happening! I bet you are so tiered! Have a MTn dew once in a while. It'll be good for you hahah!

I'm happy that the blossoms are out and that cedar is starting to be beautiful again! That's fun you got to work woth dad even though it was long, I bet he appreciated but I bet he wishes I was there to help him though πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜œ 

Amd interesting name?? Steele? Or steeler?? I don't know how you say it hahah. But crazy I'm glad amanda is feeling better 

I AM SO PROUD OF MALECK! I wish I could be there to watch him!! But yeah keep food in him hahah. 

I heard about krue and japrix!! So cute! And Easton and Alex having another baby?!! That's crazy!! And Adelaide told me! That's awesome!

I keep praying for Madsen! Don't worry. I can't imagine how much you worry about him. I'm starting to understand your hurt more and more. I love you amd you are a great mom. 

This week started out good but the last few days have been rough. Cried alot yesterday. I got really anxious and thought i might throw up, it was scary. I'm trying to hang in there mom. I'm trying. Emailed my president to see if I can start talking to the counselor. 

Love you! ❤️ 

April 14, 1014
Hey Em,
 I hope you have had a good week.  I have had an insanely busy one, but as promised I made it to the temple.  Maleck and I did baptisms Tuesday night.  It was super cool to be baptized by him.  I also studied my scriptures daily. I love chapter 5 of Jacob.  

Last week were student Body elections, the first prom vote, and the ACT- Yikes, maybe I should retire.  Addy Young is the new Student Body President, and Dax Nicoll is the new Student Body Vice President.  It was an insanely close election-- so much stress.  Seth Morris will be the SB secretary and Derek Belnap will be Service rep.  I think that it will be a good core.  Next week are class elections.  I think Maleck will run. If he doesn't, I think this will be my last year.  There is just too much to juggle.

The blossoms are out- finally and they are gorgeous!  It is killing dad's allergies though.  Dad and I spent all of Saturday building the back deck and the rental- and we didn't finish it.  It was a long, but good day.

Stockton and Amanda came to dinner today.  Amanda has had a pretty good week, but she wasn't feeling well today.   I feel so bad for her.  They told us that they will most likely name the baby Steele Stockton Rigby- great name don't you think?

I haven't heard much from Seleck and Leydi, but they did attend the Taylorsville temple open house.  I love when my kids are doing great things!

Madsen.. hmmm I just don't know what to do.  

We went to Juab to watch Maleck run the 400 and 200 on Friday.  He got a PR in the 200.  He is such a great kid, but watch out when he is hangry and tired.  It was a rough post church fasting. 

Dad is as busy as ever, but we are going to the temple on Thursday- I am so excited.

Not sure if you heard but Krue and Japrix are engaged and Adelaide got her mission call.  Alex and Easton are expecting a baby boy in July too.  All this make grandma Weaver very happy.

Did you get my Amazon order?  Mary Kay is coming.

I can't wait to visit with you tomorrow.

Sweet Dreams- Keep hanging in there.  
I love you!





April 15, 2024
Thanks for the emails! You did have a busy week! Way to go to the temple! And read your scriptures I am so proud of you! 

That sounds like a great student body for next year though! Should go well! I can't believe elections already happened amd are happening! I bet you are so tiered! Have a MTn dew once in a while. It'll be good for you hahah!

I'm happy that the blossoms are out and that cedar is starting to be beautiful again! That's fun you got to work woth dad even though it was long, I bet he appreciated but I bet he wishes I was there to help him though πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜œ 

Amd interesting name?? Steele? Or steeler?? I don't know how you say it hahah. But crazy I'm glad amanda is feeling better 

I AM SO PROUD OF MALECK! I wish I could be there to watch him!! But yeah keep food in him hahah. 

I heard about krue and japrix!! So cute! And Easton and Alex having another baby?!! That's crazy!! And Adelaide told me! That's awesome!

I keep praying for Madsen! Don't worry. I can't imagine how much you worry about him. I'm starting to understand your hurt more and more. I love you amd you are a great mom. 

This week started out good but the last few days have been rough. Cried alot yesterday. I got really anxious and thought i might throw up, it was scary. I'm trying to hang in there mom. I'm trying. Emailed my president to see if I can start talking to the counselor. 

Love you! ❤️ 





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